No More Womb-Mate for Bo

We sadly discovered the loss of Go on Wednesday at our 16 week appointment. It was a complete shock, as there had been absolutely no indication that anything was wrong. Although smaller than Bo, Go looked normal. Unfortunately, there was no heart beat and he/she measured a full four weeks smaller than Bo, indicating that the heart had stopped beating within days of our last ultrasound. We’ll never know why, of course, and I don’t know that the knowledge of it would lessen the pain anyway. There is a part of me, though, that wishes that this baby had been developed enough to know the gender.

Both Dr. Hayborn (the doc at the perinatal center – the high risk place) and Dr. Peck (my regular OB doc) believe that this should not affect Bo in any way. Measuring right on schedule with a strong heartbeat of 154 beats per minute, Bo should continue to develop normally. They will, however, monitor me more closely now with visits every two weeks for a while. Both docs said that my body will continue a bit longer to respond as if it’s carrying twins, still placing me in a higher risk category and at a greater risk for pre-term labor.

In a few days I’ll post the ultrasound picture of Bo and will also try to post the dvd of the ultrasound – it’s pretty neat as you can watch the movement and even hear the heartbeat.

Please pray for a safe remaining pregnancy and normal development of Bo. Also pray please that my body will quickly transition to a singleton pregnancy, lowering the risk of pre-term labor. And, of course, please keep us in your prayers as we deal with the loss of Go. There are times when I'm so overcome with the grief that I momentarily forget that I'm still pregnant. I know that we are very blessed to be carrying a strong and healthy baby, but that does not lessen the pain of losing a baby.